The Glass is Always Half Full

So I was laying on the hood of my car with my radio playing Rascal Flatts and Taylor Swift in the background while sitting in the parking lot before softball practice. Cherish was in her 'stang in front of me laughing. It was so gorgeous I just wanted to relax because it seems like I never get to do that anymore. I'm always stressed about something whether it's work, school, sports, or family. Something is always on my mind.

Sarah Morrill pulled up next to me and told me to climb on my roof and she did the same. It would have made a great photo. We were just chilling singing along with Taylor Swift.

I eventually talked our captain into taken a nice scenic run while up there. Running helps me think. She started telling me how she would love to do that and I toldher how that would benefit our team so much even though we don't really need to run that much in softball. She told me that if i could convince the team to run then we would. She wished me luck because people like Jourdan and Katie pitch a fit even when we run less than a lap around the field. We ended up running around the first softball field and back.

Between sitting on my car listening to country and taking a nice run, I did a lot of thinking. Not about anything specific just about the future and about my attitude towards things and about people. I worry way too much and I don't take charge enough. I need to do things for me not because someone else wants me to or because it'll make someone else happy. I mean not that I shouldn't try to please people but I don't think I make decisions based on myself a lot. I'm always worried that my choice will hurt someone else or I'll screw up. I act too much like a child as well. I need to grow up and deal with things. Not everythings easy and things get messy but that's life and it's not going to turn out the way I want. It's not a disney fairytale.

I need to focus more on what's good and not so much on how everything is falling apart. I have so many good things happening and I don't even acknowledge them because I'm too focused on what went wrong. So yeah I sat out two softball games. Two sophomores played in my spot. When I'm a sophomore I don't want a freshman playing before me unless she's amazing. And I'm getting payed $350 so what am I complaining about. All I can do it catch balls and swing my bat I can't control the line up.

From now on no more negative nelly.