Emptiness

I walked into the house and it was so quiet. It's the first time I haven't heard that distinct "Heeeyyy!!" I can still hear it perfecly. I still have the vision of her saying it for the last time over spring break. I miss it. Her chair is empty and the tv's volume is low. There's no wonderful smell of whatever she has been cooking all day throughout the house. It's empty. It hit me for the first time that she was gone. I know Friday I'm going to fall apart. The last time I saw her I told her I loved her and gave her the usual hug. She told me the same and I told her I'd see her in a month when I came down for the wedding.

We were looking around the house and Grandma told us that whatever we wanted we could have at the end of the week she's just not ready to part with any of it yet. I found a ring and a smaller one of her rooster figurines that I want. Those are the only two things I will take. I found her wedding rings. They fit my finger perfectly. She was 93 and perfectly happy with her life and that's why every tear that I have and will shed are out of joy for her.

Florida will never be the same.