I gave in

So I was told I needed to start one so here it is. My life isn't the most amusing thing to read about but I'm just kinda hoping that this will help me vent a little and arrange my thoughts. Right now I'm busy watching Aladin and I just got done with the fox and the hound. I don't know why but I'm in a major disney mood right now. I think it's because disney movies make me feel like a kid and when I was a kid my life was so much simplier than it is now. I didn't have to fight with my parents all the time about our different opinions on my social life and I didn't get yelled at everyday about stuff that's not even my fault. I liked it better when my parents weren't always stressed out because they involve themselves in too many activities at once and then blame the house being a mess on me.
My mom has her opinions and she wants me to have the same ones. Too bad our opinions collide like two trains going full speed down the same track without brakes. She doesn't know how to forget. I get reminded every other day of what I did. I don't understand how she can't see that by bringing it up she only hurts me more. It's not something that I'm going to ever forget in my lifetime. It's causing me to grow away from my family though. They are pushing me one way and I'm steadily pulling myself away and I'm not really sure where I'm going to fall in the process. Maybe I'll learn to stand on my own feet for once or maybe I'll find someone who is willing to catch me. I would like to think I know who to trust and what to do but I'm only 19 and I know I'll make more and worse mistakes than I already have. The only thing I can do is learn from them. I can't promise to be that perfect daughter that I once was because that would be living the life they want for me like i did for 18 years. I'm ready for it to be my life.