Darkness

Lately I've been in a huge slump. It's probably the worst I've ever felt. So many things have gone wrong lately and trying to handle them all at once has become chaos. I know what I should be focusing on and what should be important but my wants don't mirror that. I wish I knew what people were thinking. That's what always stops me. I don't know how someone will react or if it's what they really want. I feel like a piece of me is missing. I don't know where it is. I don't know how to get it back.

On another note it's been a year since I've been in a relationship (well to get technical it will be a year May 31). Tonight I'm going to the movies with Jon who I dated in high school and we hung out back in January. Yesterday Nick asked me out too but I had to work. I probably would have said no anyways. If he wants a second chance he'll have to work a lot harder. Plus I have friends who don't think very highly of him so I wouldn't want to upset them by going out with him. Boys aren't worth ruining a friendship no matter who they are.