May the best of your todays be the worst of your tomorrows.

I know my life could be much worse than it is and it's steadily getting better than what it was over the summer but I just feel like so much goes wrong. Maybe I'm causing a lot of the pain myself but just when I feel like everything is healing over it's like something opens the wound right back up. I'm trying to change but it's easier said than done. Sometimes it's like my brain and mouth aren't connected at all. I really don't know what to do anymore. The worst part is that the people who are so nice to me I treat like crap. I don't mean to. I'm just not the ideal person to get close to. I'm not emotional enough to be a good friend or girlfriend which is probably why I've ended all my past relationships with guys. I'm trying to not be so rash with this one.

I feel like a puzzle. I'm slowly picking up the pieces and putting them back together.